My Review of why I wanted to become a doctor

I felt sooo weird after leaving my blog just like that....and leave a post that worries everyone (well,no one worries me so it doesn't matter).

By the way,some people asked me that,

"why a doctor? Their studies are hard ya' know?"
" Doctor? You can get into jail if you clumsily make a patient die!"
" You'll die of stress if you become a doctor"

And etc...which...makes me thinking...and which...I DON'T WANT TO THINK OF IT!!!
I know it alredy.I know doctorate is not something to play with.I know you cannot be clumsy when you were treating a patient.I know doctor has the highest rate of the most stressed jobs...

But since I know it alredy, I'AM PREPARED FOR IT!!

People should be scared.People don't want to have it too hard so they run away,they don't want to go in jail so they run away and they don't want to get too stressed so they run away,because they didn't try it yet and they predict it'll happen.

but yes,same goes to me.I'am scared too.I'am scared if I mess up...like...my patient die or something.The patient's life....As if I'am a mother standing on a balcony,holding a weak baby,making me struggle as if the baby was going to fall and die any sooner.I know...i know that....

I wanted to become a doctor to cure people...to help people...to make them happier.They have someone they love...and they want this person they love to live...just for them.I want to cure their love ones...so that person will be happy.I want this happiness to spread around their love ones.I want this healthiness to last longer...even at last they'll die.I want to make them understand....that this cure I'am doing for their love ones aren't going to last forever,and I want them to cherish their memories with their love ones until they die...until to the point I can't do nothing anymore... death...

Other than doctor,why heart surgeon?
Heart....is very important to humans.Heart....is like a king to this weak human body...Heart....heart is where it guides you to every movement...heart is like....you are the master of this heart...because in your sleep,when you are angry,sad,happy....heart is still there....they are important to us weakling humans arent they?

But...what about the people with weak heart? What about the people who accidently died like that? A sudden death?

That's because...the heart leaves the body....in other words...the heart stops functioning...

Circulation blood problems....circulatory system problems...weak heart....all time heart attack...

These people....these people who had this problems...death is waiting for them...just next to them ready to take your heart....

I don't know the people who had heart problems...think about deaths....some people says they were ready,some says I'am not...some says life is too cruel,let me die faster and some says...I'll be waiting,but while waiting...i wanted to accomplish something in my life...

Heart....it's the cruel organ ever....but it's the most helpful...it's the most important....
When this heart has problems...and stop functioning...you'll die...
and when this heart has problems....one must be sacrificed to donate their heart...

Heart are only one.....and I'am trying to find a cure...any....

Cancer....unknown diseases....no cure....

Isn't that painful? Isn't that painful when someone was dying...but people just still like "no cure...sorry"
Isn't that really make you worry?! That your love ones has a short live?!

I've seen to many painful scenes in this life...
"I'am sorry miss/mr...it seems that..."

I HATE IT!! I HATE WHEN A DOCTOR SAYS THAT! I felt like...this can't be happening...
The innocence of your child...when they say... "where's mummy/daddy?"

Those wet,hot tears when your love one dies....just because of this cruel,smart micro creatures that would jeapordized a wealking body...

I know...I want to feel this...that's why I want to be a doctor.I want to help people.It's for their happiness and it's for them to teach a lesson from this...happiness with someone....that a person cannot live forever...and they need to leave you one day...this is reality.

I want to find a cure....I...no...I BELIEVED that this world has a bookmark of an end....
same goes to the situation here AT earth....
people believed that went they go...there's dead end...and they turn their backs and walk away...finding another path
But I want to go to this dead end,break the wall and find the path...to a cure!
I'am just a middle schooler...thinking like this,I'am stupid now...I'am still learning now...but that's what I want to do!

No thing in this life that doesn't have an end....but it depends...good or bad end....
If....it's a bad end....will you believe me that you can change it into a good end...by changing the routes of your paths?

Do you think when you reach 'there',you can't hold back and you can't leave?

I'll leave the thinking to you...
This is my review...of why...I wanted to become a doctor....