It's school today alright.But today sounds like....far from normal.Okay,I went to school,have Japanese language class (and I must introduce myself in front of the class) and an assembly.
At the start is pretty much normal.Then I have my Art subject.Yes! I completed my homework and all,but I gotta do an origami because I lost it.Damn! (sorry) . So,right now,Mr. Google will help.
After recess,something sad occurred and it makes me cry.I fight with another of my best friend,she's being kind of....emo.No,I'am not teasing her.I felt sympathy for her and I wanted to help her.I want to know more about her but she's like "no nothing" and like "I don't have anything to tell you" or something like that.And that makes me sad.
I know this feeling.I know the feeling that someone WANTS to keep a secret,but they want people to know.The want people....to care.They want people to care for him/her,by keeping secrets and wanted people to dig it out from him/her.
Today,I learned something.You know....I've been through all of that.Don't be sad or angry but I HATE someone who are really weak! No,not weak in strength or something like that...but your heart.Your heart are weak.You can't control your feelings,and I know that feeling.Because I've been through everything! I hate weak (emotion) people,because not everyone knows my dark secrets,not everyone knows my past.I've been living a sad,depressed,unsuccessful,oh God,I couldn't even say it.
I've been through all of that,and now I survived! I felt confident,I can now study with all of my heart! I have a goal and a future awaits me.So,that's why,the person that is weak (emotion) people,I don't blame you for being weak,I wanted you to change like me.To change to be a better person.I know the feeling of loneliness,betrayal,backstabber,because I'am a teenager too and teenager never runs from that problem,so please,stay strong.Do something that would change the future.If I give you the power of premonition,you see a bad future for you,would you do something? You WOULD do something if there's bad past for you right? So,that's it.Imagine you have the power of premonition,predict the future as if you will had a bad future and DO something to prevent that bad future to happen.Because you have to change,STARTING FROM NOW!!
Today,some several events happen to me and I was very sad about it.Teacher said that I don't have ears and I'am deaf.Of course,no one cares about it,but I was about to burst crying.I do have this ear infection happened to me when I was a kid.Of course,if I have a chance I would say "HEY WOMAN,DO YOU THINK SOMEONE WHO HAS DISEASE WOULD HEAR WELL?!" but of course again,no one cares.I don't want to be a busybody or to be a loud person.
I'am the person who keeps things.
And I only dig and give those secret things to the ones I trust.Not that I hate my parents but even my parents I couldn't confess my secrets.
Because there's a day I sworn to myself,to be independant.Most people think like , "don't keep it to yourself,you'll get depressed" or whatever motivational words like that,but I thought of having my own simple penthouse,a family and a hospital in the future.Simple words,but very hard to did that.So starting from now on...
I'll be independant,move on to the light and stay calm!
Thanks for reading and buh bye!! :3
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