please help me...
I'm so tired...
I wanted to move to a country,have a simple life and school...just that...
i don't want to live at a city anymore...
Wednesday, 21 May 2014
Saturday, 10 May 2014
SHE MAKE ME WANT TO F***K EVERYTHING!!
OKAY! SHE SHOULD KNOW THAT I'M SOO STRESSED NOW!!
To be honest,her time management and her decision skills makes me pissed off,this is because of that stupid dorm.She should get out of that stupid place!
It makes her have more friends,find love...but that place makes me hate it and her NOW attitude.Her time management is not correct,always doing homework last minute,always delaying.Sleep late,plays too much and stressing SMALL SOCIAL PROBLEMS!
And today,TODAY!! she make me so angry.I ALREDY CALLED HER 11.30,then when everyone arrived here at GM,I called her and....SHE'S STILL AT THE DORM.
So instead,I say 'Later we meet and buy the stock' .I'm tired of waiting.I'm tired of waiting for someone.I'm tired of being the first person to come.
I experienced the same thing...with her.She promised to have study group,but she never come...
She never come...
She make me wait,2 hours 30 minutes at the public library alone.
She doesn't care about me
So when I met her at school,she just say 'sorry' and continue to her 'laughing,happy' state.She doesn't feel guilty at all.
After all the lies I told my parents , 'I'm going to school',but instead I went to the library to do our study group,feeling so refreshed to teach her Science she never come.
It's better....it's better if I don't have any friends like when I was in standard 6.
I DON'T NEED FRIENDS!!
I can't believe I'm crying because of a stupid human.
I hate how she makes her last decision,I hate how that dorm,that hell place that changes my innocent friend into some kind of 'hopeless-romantic,hopeless-social butterfly' girl that forgets her KPOP and ANIME.She's our (BFFYG) only otaku and nerd girl,but now she's some kind of popular girl that I hate now!
I DON'T NEED FRIENDS BECAUSE THEY ONLY MAKES ME MESSY!!
It's better if I focus on studying,watching anime like when I was in standard 6,it's much better that way...
i have to stay away from anyone...right now...
but one thing I learned,I would never trust her again.I don't care if she's reading this,but this is my true feelings.I don't like the way she motivates me,she should know that 'rough' motivation is not for everyone.She's a baka,she helps me,but from now on...I'm sorry,but I will not appreciate you anymore...
To be honest,her time management and her decision skills makes me pissed off,this is because of that stupid dorm.She should get out of that stupid place!
It makes her have more friends,find love...but that place makes me hate it and her NOW attitude.Her time management is not correct,always doing homework last minute,always delaying.Sleep late,plays too much and stressing SMALL SOCIAL PROBLEMS!
And today,TODAY!! she make me so angry.I ALREDY CALLED HER 11.30,then when everyone arrived here at GM,I called her and....SHE'S STILL AT THE DORM.
So instead,I say 'Later we meet and buy the stock' .I'm tired of waiting.I'm tired of waiting for someone.I'm tired of being the first person to come.
I experienced the same thing...with her.She promised to have study group,but she never come...
She never come...
She make me wait,2 hours 30 minutes at the public library alone.
She doesn't care about me
So when I met her at school,she just say 'sorry' and continue to her 'laughing,happy' state.She doesn't feel guilty at all.
After all the lies I told my parents , 'I'm going to school',but instead I went to the library to do our study group,feeling so refreshed to teach her Science she never come.
It's better....it's better if I don't have any friends like when I was in standard 6.
I DON'T NEED FRIENDS!!
I can't believe I'm crying because of a stupid human.
I hate how she makes her last decision,I hate how that dorm,that hell place that changes my innocent friend into some kind of 'hopeless-romantic,hopeless-social butterfly' girl that forgets her KPOP and ANIME.She's our (BFFYG) only otaku and nerd girl,but now she's some kind of popular girl that I hate now!
I DON'T NEED FRIENDS BECAUSE THEY ONLY MAKES ME MESSY!!
It's better if I focus on studying,watching anime like when I was in standard 6,it's much better that way...
i have to stay away from anyone...right now...
but one thing I learned,I would never trust her again.I don't care if she's reading this,but this is my true feelings.I don't like the way she motivates me,she should know that 'rough' motivation is not for everyone.She's a baka,she helps me,but from now on...I'm sorry,but I will not appreciate you anymore...
Thursday, 8 May 2014
I wished for something...
I wish for something....I wish for something extraordinary!!
I can't believe I said that....
I'm the kind of person who doesn't want things to change,who doesn't want wish for anything,but there's this split second in my mind saying...
"I want something extraordinary"
I want adventures,mysteries....anything that I never experienced.Love triangles,receiving love letters....those things.
Everyday is the same,routine.Wake up at 7,shower and all,tuition,piano,school,got back home,shower,study,watch anime,sleep then wake back up.My life is so boring.
I want colours in my life.Something I've never experienced,something I never seen.My friend who stays at a boarding home...she's....so full of life.I admit she has so many social problems,but her life is coloured,unlike me.
I keep,locked inside a bubble.I interact with the same people.I'm satisfied of staying just there,flying in a narrow sky.But no matter how hard my friend is having her problems right now,she experience lots of things I don't.I want to experience feelings,but I don't know....
Comparing me and her,we are so different.She's a social butterfly and I'm introvert,I'm much comfortable socialising in the internet.She got guy fans,I don't.She's popular,I'm low profile.But one that that differs us the most is experience...
I may have more intelligence,more facts,more information than her,but I lack something that is called 'experience'...'social'...'emotional intelligence'.She suffers the same thing everyday,and I always wonder, 'was it that hard? can I really handle that emotions?' .It keeps bottling my feelings every time.
No,I never wish that I met the man of my dreams and something,I just don't want a man,I want something that is far more than normal...
Adventures,new things...I don't want routine....but will I be able to find it?
I can't believe I said that....
I'm the kind of person who doesn't want things to change,who doesn't want wish for anything,but there's this split second in my mind saying...
"I want something extraordinary"
I want adventures,mysteries....anything that I never experienced.Love triangles,receiving love letters....those things.
Everyday is the same,routine.Wake up at 7,shower and all,tuition,piano,school,got back home,shower,study,watch anime,sleep then wake back up.My life is so boring.
I want colours in my life.Something I've never experienced,something I never seen.My friend who stays at a boarding home...she's....so full of life.I admit she has so many social problems,but her life is coloured,unlike me.
I keep,locked inside a bubble.I interact with the same people.I'm satisfied of staying just there,flying in a narrow sky.But no matter how hard my friend is having her problems right now,she experience lots of things I don't.I want to experience feelings,but I don't know....
Comparing me and her,we are so different.She's a social butterfly and I'm introvert,I'm much comfortable socialising in the internet.She got guy fans,I don't.She's popular,I'm low profile.But one that that differs us the most is experience...
I may have more intelligence,more facts,more information than her,but I lack something that is called 'experience'...'social'...'emotional intelligence'.She suffers the same thing everyday,and I always wonder, 'was it that hard? can I really handle that emotions?' .It keeps bottling my feelings every time.
No,I never wish that I met the man of my dreams and something,I just don't want a man,I want something that is far more than normal...
Adventures,new things...I don't want routine....but will I be able to find it?
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