I wish for something....I wish for something extraordinary!!
I can't believe I said that....
I'm the kind of person who doesn't want things to change,who doesn't want wish for anything,but there's this split second in my mind saying...
"I want something extraordinary"
I want adventures,mysteries....anything that I never experienced.Love triangles,receiving love letters....those things.
Everyday is the same,routine.Wake up at 7,shower and all,tuition,piano,school,got back home,shower,study,watch anime,sleep then wake back up.My life is so boring.
I want colours in my life.Something I've never experienced,something I never seen.My friend who stays at a boarding home...she's....so full of life.I admit she has so many social problems,but her life is coloured,unlike me.
I keep,locked inside a bubble.I interact with the same people.I'm satisfied of staying just there,flying in a narrow sky.But no matter how hard my friend is having her problems right now,she experience lots of things I don't.I want to experience feelings,but I don't know....
Comparing me and her,we are so different.She's a social butterfly and I'm introvert,I'm much comfortable socialising in the internet.She got guy fans,I don't.She's popular,I'm low profile.But one that that differs us the most is experience...
I may have more intelligence,more facts,more information than her,but I lack something that is called 'experience'...'social'...'emotional intelligence'.She suffers the same thing everyday,and I always wonder, 'was it that hard? can I really handle that emotions?' .It keeps bottling my feelings every time.
No,I never wish that I met the man of my dreams and something,I just don't want a man,I want something that is far more than normal...
Adventures,new things...I don't want routine....but will I be able to find it?
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